I was just sitting here having a conversation with someone on yahoo messenger and he started asking me sum questions about chilling and if he tried to take things a lil further but he never specified if he meant now or in the future after gettin to know one another better, immediately that was a turn off in his book and he got mad at me for tellin him that i needed to get to know him first. Well, I needed that to be clear just in case. So we got into this minute argument that was just so stupid because he doesnt realize that just cuz he is cute, he aint shit! I refuse to let him talk to me any kind of way, and that must be what he is used to, but I dont have time for that dumb shit.
I mean he really got my blood boiling right now, and instantly I feel back into a stupor as I listened to Teach Me and thought about someone very special in my life. Right now Im kinda crying thinking about how much easier my life would be if my special someone was really mine. I want him to realize that he was the one that taught me what the meaning of true love is. He was the one that taught me how to appreciate it and cherish it. I want him to continue to be that love, but i want us to share it. I dunno y Im so emotional right now, it might have alot to do with the fact that i've been single for a lil' over a year and no one seems to reach out to me and touch me the way he did in the beginning. He just was a random guy that caught my interest, he turned out to be someone very special. I wish that if it is just impossible to get him back that I could find a ginuine guy, cuz Im sick of being alone and dealing with the stupidity of RANDOM NIGGAS! I'm not a picky person and my standards are not very high, so y is it so hard for me? I wish I knew the answer.....but I dont. Well, I have to go to work in a lil less than six hours, so lemme try to get some sleep. G'nite.
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