Well, I was just sitting in my room, watching T.V. and talking on the phone, when I realized one reason why I didn't kiss u when we were together..........I DIDN'T KNOW HOW TO FRENCH KISS!!!!!
I realized that although I had kissed sumone before, I had never actually learned to "french". I was afraid that you would want to kiss me like that and I wouldn't know how to and you wouldn't want to be with me anymore. I was sooooo inexperienced back then. That is one reason why I was so shy around you. I would have felt way more awkward than I already did, and I just didnt want you to think I was stupid or something. I cared so much about what/how you thought about me that I tried to make sure everything I did was "perfect" just to keep you around, but in reality may have been a factor that drove you away. See one thing is, I never faked who I am just to get you or to try to keep you, that part about me has always been and still is real. I just want to be the one person you can count on to make you happy. I've always wanted to be the one to scoop you off your feet and have you caught up in a whirlwind of my love. I want you to feel what I feel for you. You've blogged and written about the kind of girl you say you want and looking back on myself, I see that in me. I dont try to be that girl, I AM that WOMAN. I just wish you could see it.
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